Today I don’t have a delicious dessert to share or a wonderful meal I’ve made. Sadly my appetite hasn’t been blog worthy. I’m lucky I get myself to eat because I know that is important, along with working out. Getting myself to the gym, has been my life saver this past week. I call this post the unhappy ending because it is very sad. I loved him dearly and did my all for him. All I wanted was for him to be happy. I thought we communicated well but I guess not well enough. I guess if you know how to cook and make cannolis it still doesn’t matter. I’m no longer in a relationship and I’m single. Surprised? Um yes me too. Everyone I know is surprised and to give you a great reason why, I don’t really have a great reason. Call this a bad dream but it actually happened. In my 3 years of devotion and support to him, it came to an end just like that. And quickly it did.
I’m glad to have wonderful friends. They have reached out to me this past week and we have cried and laughed. My family, who I love dearly has been very supportive and helpful. I know I’ll get through this. I want to think maybe I have this one chance to make it all better but I know in reality it probably won’t happen. I’m thankful for my blog and the wonderful individuals I’ve met through here as well. I’m glad I have a way to express my feelings, happy, sad or angry.
I’m sad, confused, and surprised. Am I angry? No. If you can’t make someone happy after doing everything you could for them, then what else is there to give?
At the end of the day, I’m glad I was able to enjoy a bit of the military experience. What these people do for our country amazes me. They work very hard and give up their life for our country so we can have our freedom.
I love you all. I’m getting through this. The unhappy ending might have ended, but a whole new story is in my near future.
Happiness doesn’t come easy for everyone. So I ask you, what makes your happy happen?